August 16, 2009

1 day to go...

and I'm not gonna lie. I'm starting to freak. Ok, maybe not freak. But definitely nervous. It's pretty much all I keep thinking about.

I'll be quite honest. I'm a baby. Big baby. My pain tolerance is ZERO. None. Nothing. Zip.Zap.Zero. So the idea of pain in probably freaking me out more than anything. I really haven't thought about the idea of labor until now. I wasn't worried about it for the longest time, but now knowing that it's coming, I'm getting nervous. Which is expected I guess.

It's so hard to fathom that the time is here. I still remember the day I found out I was pregnant and thinking that 9 months was such a long time from then. I think it came a lot faster than I thought it would. I'm so ready, but at the same time... maybe I'm not.

I'm going to miss feeling my baby girl move around in my belly. I'll miss her hiccups and gym time. Probably won't miss tap dance sessions on my bladder all that much though. I'll miss hearing her heartbeat at the appointments. I'll miss my cute belly minus the stretch marks. I won't miss peeing 85 times a day nor having to get up once an hour to pee. I'll miss laying on the couch with my feet up, feeling her move around. I won't miss my sausage toes or cankles or my chipmunk face. I'll miss my maternity jeans but won't miss not being able to touch my toes or struggling putting on my shoes. I also won't miss looking like a beluga whale. And look forward to my old clothes. But mostly, I look forward to seeing and holding my baby girl... it's gonna be great. It will make all this so entirely worth it.

Lets see... I think we are ready. Ready for whatever is in store for us. I keep telling Sean whenever we do something that this is the last time we'll do it as a family of three (Reese counts). We are going to go on a walk tonight and it'll be the last walk we take as just a family of three. We went to Wal-mart today and it was the last time we'll go to Wal-mart as a family of three. I'm not sad that we'll no longer be a family of three, it's just strange to think about it. We start a new life tomorrow and it's going to be amazing. I can't wait.

See you soon, baby girl!

2 comments:

  1. You'll do great. The blessing at the end is all that it will take to erase any pain you felt. Enjoy.....she'll grow up so fast.

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  2. Good luck today Miss Andrea, we're thinking of you! ...and Tara is right, that's why mom's go back for another one, you forget the bad stuff.

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